KEEP ME
WHERE THE LIGHT IS
So sometimes it’s like I’m literally not in my body
i can’t focus
i can’t make conversation
i’m enthralled in the sensation
the sensation that literally owns me
until i distract myself enough that it decides to leave
but it’s not gone far - always creeps up to remind me….
If only there was a switch
i wouldn’t be selfish
id allow myself to feel it now and again
but not for hours on end
i miss out on stuff
head is fuzzy
palms are sweaty
throat is tight
breathing is a task…breathing..
when I’m cured of this demon
i’ll savour every second my soul is at peace
never have i been so grateful for a moments contentment
the birds in the tree
the sun on my face
the sound of my mothers voice
the feeling of peace
the words of my favourite song
i can’t wait to figure out whats wrong with me so I can say, this is the way I used to be
Claire x
"We live in the past regretting and in the future worrying"
"If it's to be it's up to me"
"Focus on what's right in front of you, not what's 100 miles ahead"
"I have the power to control how I feel"